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💗 Why I Created Unicorn Jungle Strong

From Breakdown to Breakthrough. From Body Shame to Soul Power.

I’m not just a Personal Trainer or Spiritual Coach—I’m someone who’s walked through fire, stumbled through darkness, and still chooses to rise.I’m a big sister, a fur-mom, a football player turned healer, a free spirit, and a lifelong student of this earth school.And I built Unicorn Jungle Strong—not as a gym, but as a sanctuary. Because I needed one.

🌪️ The Collapse That Changed Everything

I didn’t create this space because I had it all figured out. I created it because I had already been through so much—so many times I had to pick myself back up from a hard fall.

Years earlier, I had reached some of the lowest moments of my life. There were times I didn’t think I could go on. I tried to end my life—four times. Not because I didn’t want to live, but because I didn’t know how to carry that much pain. I felt hopeless. Maybe this was just how my life was supposed to go. Maybe I chose too hard of challenges this lifetime, and I wasn’t strong enough to overcome them.

Even after surviving those dark chapters, the years that followed brought their own kind of breakdown. I gained nearly 100 pounds. My eating disorder was out of control. I had yo-yo dieted for so long—up and down, losing weight only to gain it all back again. I was exhausted by the pattern. I had worked so hard to get the weight off, and here I was again.

My body felt like it was shutting down—again. It was breaking—so I had to be broken open. My thyroid was inflamed. My spine was in constant pain. I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's thyroiditis, and later found out I had Tarlov cysts on my spine—rare, painful, and largely misunderstood by the medical system. Most doctors brushed it off. One even told me to remove my tailbone.

I also had multiple slipped discs and a knee that had already been through four surgeries. Sitting, moving, even resting became painful.

Everything in my life started to crumble—relationships, income, self-worth. I found myself in another dead-end job, the kind that drains your spirit and mirrors your sense of powerlessness. I went through debt consolidation, dead-end jobs, broken friendships. My identity was unraveling.

And yet… something inside me whispered: “Begin again.”

🛠️ A DIY Healing Metaphor

I didn’t feel safe at traditional gyms. I didn’t want to be seen. I didn’t feel like I belonged. I didn’t need a place to just sweat—I needed a space to grieve, reconnect, and finally learn how to trust myself.

So I started creating what I needed: a gym that was also a healing temple.

Piece by piece, paintbrush by paintbrush, I built Unicorn Jungle Strong. It became a place where lifting was more than fitness—it was transformation. A place where I could reclaim my power, reconnect with my spirit, and finally begin again. A place to channel all my pain into purpose.

🌌 Soul Awakening: The Tools That Saved Me

When no program, plan, or rehab could fully reach me—I turned inward. I began to explore systems that helped me understand myself as more than just a body in pain.

✨ Soul Plan✨ Akashic Records✨ Numerology✨ Human Design✨ Astrology✨ Buddhism and Kabbalah✨ Reiki

These tools helped me understand energy, ego, patterns, and soul purpose. They helped me see life from a higher perspective.

I began to understand the human perspective and the soul—how the ego wants to keep us in suffering and personality patterns, making it harder to overcome challenges. But I also began to see I wasn’t just a helpless victim. I had more power than I realized. I chose this life, these lessons, and these parents. And if I chose them—I could rise from them.

🧘‍♀️ Learning to Trust Myself

I had spent my life trying to earn love through performance, perfection, and people-pleasing. But I never learned how to feel my feelings, honor my needs, or trust my intuition.

Unicorn Jungle Strong became the space where I finally began learning to love and trust myself—maybe for the first time.

To trust yourself means:

• Listening to your body instead of overriding it

• Letting emotions be felt, not fixed

• Making choices from your soul, not survival

• Saying no when you mean no—and knowing that’s sacred

• Believing your intuition matters, even if others don’t understand

🦄 What It Means to Practice Your Pink State™

Healing isn’t linear. I’m still rising. I’m still healing. I’m still learning.

But now I practice.

I move my body with compassion. I use reiki, infrared sauna, EFT, and soul tools to shift energy. I give myself grace. I show up—not just for the outcome, but for the process.

And every day, I choose to stay. To feel. To honor where I am while moving toward who I’m becoming.

That’s why I created Self-Love Warrior Club™.So others don’t have to heal alone, like I did.

🤍 A Safe Space for Sensitive Strength

Not everyone feels safe in traditional gyms. Some of us carry trauma in our bodies. Some of us have been made to feel like we don’t belong because we don’t fit the mold.

Unicorn Jungle Strong is for the sensitive ones. The brave ones. The ones who are still healing.

Here, we Practice Your Pink State™: Heal. Love. Rise. Play. Embody.

This is where strength training becomes soul work. Where you don’t have to be fixed—just supported. Where it’s okay to cry between sets and still rise like a warrior.

🌟 Why It’s Called Self-Love Warrior Club™

Because this isn’t just a gym. It’s not just a brand. It’s a club—because community is the heart of it.

We were never meant to heal alone. I created this as a soul tribe—a safe place for sensitive, intuitive, powerful humans who are still in process.

The one thing I always struggled to find was quality relationships and support. I walked through most of my healing alone. But I believe we’re not meant to do this by ourselves. We need connection. We need a safe space to be seen, supported, and held as we heal. That’s what this club is.

Being a Self-Love Warrior isn’t about having it all together. It’s about showing up messy, raw, real—and choosing love anyway.

💔 The Truth About Putting Myself Out There

Sharing this space... putting myself out there… is terrifying.

Because I’m not just sharing a business.I’m sharing the real me—wounds, weight, softness, scars, and all.

I’ve had to work through conditioning that says I need to be skinny, polished, perfect before I can be seen. Before I can lead. Before I’m allowed to take up space.

But this time, I’m choosing to show up as I am. Not when I reach some goal weight or magical milestone. But now—mid-process, mid-healing, mid-becoming.

If I can be seen in my fullness—maybe you’ll feel safe enough to be seen too.

This is for all of us still learning to trust again. Still choosing to believe in love. Still walking the path, step by step.

With love,Lindsay Q. Fields Founder of Self-Love Warrior Club™ + Unicorn Jungle Strong GymSoul Plan Reader • Spiritual Intuitive Coach • Akashic Records Guide • Reiki Master • Personal Trainer

I welcome anyone who’s walking that same path—still healing, still rising, still becoming.

Want to see the space that helped me rise again?🦄 Unicorn Jungle Strong Gym – See the space👣 About Lindsay Q – My personal journey in photos

Each photo tells a piece of my healing, and every color on the wall carries a part of the story I never gave up on.